Well it's almost quarter past 11 and I'm back from downtown.
Dropped by some agencies and the Jobcentre. Most of them try to recommend temping since we are close to Christmas and permanent jobs are "slowing down", but some do understand me. I have worked almost a full year here already (temporary) and I need something stable.
I need to be able to put my feet on the ground, no matter how low it is, so I can look up and say "OK here we go". I don't want a star job, or easy, or pretty, or well paid. Just something that lets me know how things will be next week, and the week after that, no ever increasing dread of "and then what?".
I am confident, and i think people can see that. I have to be, I'm a married man now, I have responsibilities besides my own sorry ass. I have the most wonderful person in the world with me and I owe it to her to keep her safe. I'm getting that job, I don't know what it is yet, where, or how, but it's out there. I'm never giving up.
